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Daughter with cerebral palsy
« on: December 01, 2017, 06:26:25 PM »

A year ago my ex gave birth to twins. During the pregnancy a complication arose where we were told one of our daughters would have severe cerebral palsy (unable to walk, see, speak, chronic pain and infections, epilepsy).  I was for late term abortion, my ex was not...which is why she's my ex now.

We were told that our daughter (Eliza) would have difficulty surviving her first year.  I didn't have an issue taking care of her when I had her because I kinda thought she was going to die soon.  Well it turns out she's doing better than expected and I want to die. I hate caring for her, when she cries I want to run away and leave her screaming in the crib. I don't know how I will ever care about her. I just feel like caring for her is a waste of time. She is never going to even acknowledge that I exist. I just want to run away and never see her ever again.

But there's my other daughter (Aster) in this too.  She is developing completely normally and gives me routine joy when I get to see her.  She has a strong connection to me and we have a lot of fun playing games together. Unfortunately I feel like my connection with Aster isn't developing normally either cause I'm dreading having to care for Eliza thanklessly for the rest of my life. I'm pretty sure if I run away from Aster then I'll regret it immediately, and for the rest of my life.  But I don't know if I can just see my 'normal' daughter and fuck off from the one I get depressed thinking about (I don't think the courts will like that very much, also Aster will probably hate me when she's older).

So then my options are essentially to run away from it all or just accept the reality of both my children. But fuck that. fuck that. I don't give a shit about Eliza as far as I can feel right now.. I feel like I'm being dragged into caring about her by the people around me, and I'm dying inside every second I think about the next eighteen years.

Anyway, just wanted to rant a bit and get my thoughts down. I'm glad this has been set up for us all.
« Last Edit: December 03, 2017, 01:27:20 PM by sjpas »
Re: Daughter with cerebral palsy
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Re: Daughter with cerebral palsy
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